christmas christmas christmas!!!!

this morning we got up at 645 and woke up my parents. then we all opened up our stockings and presents. we all got new phones. my youngest brother and sister were so surprised! i got some clothes and books. lots of books :]

we later on went to my uncles and hung out with the family.
my mom took pictures of everyone.
i love my family.

christmas eve

i just love love love my family.
tonight we all met up at my nanas. there was 13 people there. We had lots of food and everyone was so excited to each other and esp connolly.

we all just celebrated our love for each other and for christ. of course little connolly got some toys and my nana gave all of us kids presents and i wrote out letters to everyone. then my poppy started talking. he tod us how blessed he was and how much he loved us. he cried while he said this and let me tell you i cried right along with him. Finally he got to his point which was my uncle. my uncle has had the hardest time and recently his trailer was stolen along with all of his equipment. he owns his own construction business so he neeeeds that trailer. My poppy told him to go outside and waiting out there was the trailer he needed. He was so surprised and so grateful. i love my unce with all of my heart.


god has been teaching me so much lately. when i went to camp he showed that the road had been hard and that it still would be hard but it would all be worth it in the end. lately the road has been hard, but im learning so much. im learning how much love and joy is found in God. Im learning to listen and lean on God. And im learning who he is and what he wants for me.

i love you i love you i love you god, i truly truly do.


merry christmas!!

life is beautiful

i just have to start this out with how much i loooove god. Why something so incredible would love someone like me who has even disobeyed him i dont know why, but man i do love it. 

everyone is so doing well. tonight we are spending the night with my nana and poppy. for most of my short life i never really knew them, but now my nana has become my best friend. We are pretty much the same person. 

the girls in my group are doing so well to. I just love them all to pieces. they all are so different in some ways and exactly the same in others. my prayer is that they grow close to each other and they there hearts begin to yearn for christ. i made so many mistakes back in middle school i just didnt really understand " the whole god thing". they are beautiful girls. 

oh man christmas is my favorite. 

christmas

today we went to the POP christmas symphony. me and nana so to the symphony almost every other weekend, so this was right up my ally! Michael was the conductor and man did he do a good job. 

Today when when we were at the gas station a woman came up and asked for money. She had a vera bradley ( spelling) purse and was in a big SUV. it all seemed alittle fishy and my dad ended up not giving her any money. this made me think of how we should love people so much we go to all extremes to help them. i think that god wants us to love people so much that we are push overs. that even if there is a chance that they are d

eceiving you or taking advantage we still love them. 

this our last little kitty named prince aboo 

no more facebook

im learning so much these last couple of days. sometimes i feel like im barely hanging in there. i have so many thoughts all jumbled up in my head.

two years ago i got into some trouble. i had a boyfriend who was a huge jerk to me and as time continued he got more angry and more aggressive. He has been jumping in and out of life for two years now. i have such a soft heart and for some reason its esp soft for him. and even though i know that i dont want to be with him my heart still hurts everytime hear about him, see him, or talk to him even if its just for a moment.

i recently realized that i am disobeying god by letting him in and out of my life and letting him effect my heart and feelings and my day so much. im still trying to put my thoughts together but right now im trying my hardest to lean God and let him fill my heart with joy and make me feel full inside instead of things and people.



on a happier note and as you can prob see baby connolly is doing so well. she has started swimming therapy and the therapists asked if they were sure she was sick. woo hoo!!

so this is my first blog.
i guess im going to start it with the truth.
lately ive been feeling lost, confused, angry, and confused some more.
its so hard to live the God wants you to. ESP when you feel like you keep getting knocked down to the ground. it seems like everything now adays bring me down. How do you even know that what your doing is right? How do you know if your living GOds way? how do you know that God is even real.
idk