so at this point in time im realizing that the devil has really been persueing me.
its like he knows that school is extremely hard on me. i feel like i never really come home feeling great or sastified. i feel more drained and exhausted and grumpy.

im beginning to learn how to relive my life. ive been feeling caught in these patterns which are leaning me more toward loneliness. but i feel God. and i feel him telling me to hang in there.
awhile ago i went to a camp and i went on a hike by myself. god really spoke to me then. he showed that things had been hard in the past and that they were still going to be hard, but in the end things would beautiful and i would find the peace i so desperatly want.

im still figuring things out, but things always get better. thats how life is. things are bad and good, up and down, back and forth.


on a strange note, i took tylenol PM on accident this morning. so not only was i waaay overwhelmed by the 24 sixth grade girls packed into one room but i was really hot and groggy and grumpy and i couldnt get my sentances out correctly.
at this point in time im wide awake.